No New Updates

May has been a difficult month so far. The only thing that keeps me going is drafting (in my head) my blog post announcing my pregnancy. On the drive to work, on the walk with the dogs, all I do is imagine a better time for Brian and I.

I don’t know what life is like pre trying-for-a-baby anymore. I know I was career-driven and focused but now I know none of it. The thoughts of having a viable pregnancy consumes me. My whole world has been turned upside down. I would give up my business in a heartbeat if it were possible and spend the rest of my life camping with Brian.

In a sense, I feel like I’ve lost myself. I’ve stopped picking up phone calls, stopped putting my heart into my work. I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore other than mourn and hope.