12 DPO

As of this afternoon, the spotting has pretty much stopped. I’ve spent most of this evening researching implantation bleeding – hoping that that is what my spotting is. However, I’m starting to feel my normal period symptoms. Brian went to buy some more pregnancy tests and I’m amazed at how much will-power I have. (Although admittedly, I don’t need to pee.) If my temperature drops again tomorrow, I won’t POAS and will expect my period. Tomorrow morning can’t come any sooner.

11 DPO

I POAS again this morning and got another disappointing BFN. It’s quite hard to bounce back from those BFNs. At that point, I wanted to give up temping, monitoring, OPKing – everything. I don’t know what snapped me out of it – perhaps it was the hope that I could/would get pregnant again.

I stupidly still have hope for this cycle. I’ve been spotting for the last two days and my temperatures have amazingly stayed high. I’m hoping the spotting is implantation bleeding. If my temperatures stay high I might test again on Thursday or Friday (13 dpo or 14 dpo). As these days go by however, there’s less and less of a chance that I get pregnant this cycle.

I’m Going Crazy

I was so nauseated & sick yesterday that I was very optimistic about getting a BFP today. Now that I’ve started to spot, I’m more confused than anything. If I didn’t know any better, I would think my period was about to start. I’m hoping & praying now that it’s implantation bleeding.

10 DPO & More Disappointment

I took both a Dollar Tree store test and a First Response test this morning and both were BFNs. I guess the BFP yesterday was a false positive. I’m so incredibly sad this morning.

9 DPO & Disappointment

Excited from our new BFP, we bought some First Response tests. Despite my better judgment, I peed on one of them this afternoon and got a BFN. Not even a faint line to keep me entertained.

I’m disappointed even though I know I’m not quite out yet. I’ll test again with first morning urine at 10 DPO.

9 DPO & Big Faint Positive!!!

Obviously having no will-power, I POAS this morning. I saw the beginnings of a line and showed Brian who saw nothing.

I’m so thrilled I can hardly type anything eloquent!

8 DPO

I don’t get home from work until 1 a.m. tonight so no time to obsess until 9 DPO!

7 DPO

I obviously cannot be left to my own devices. I POAS this morning and of course got a BFN. On one hand, I’m glad I got it out of my system, on the other, it reminds me of last month – where I got one BFN after another and eventually my period. It caused me to lose a little bit of hope although I know rationally that it’s still too early.

I dreamt last night that I got a BFP and was so thrilled – especially to tell Brian. I had another dream of an infant and said to her (!), “We’ve been waiting so long for you.” Sounds incredibly cheesy.

The next two days are going to be super busy so I hope it’ll keep my mind off things. I hope to test again at 10 DPO.

6.5 DPO

Reading stories of women who got BFNs from testing too early is helping me resist the urge to POAS today/tomorrow. I’m staring obsessively at my chart wondering if it looks normal. On top of all of this, I’m super tired. Hopefully it’s another early pregnancy symptom!

6 DPO

Working extra last night + being completely exhausted helped me to make it through yesterday. But I’m refreshed now and the obsession begins again!

I got a super sharp pain on my left side yesterday – which of course prompted the search term “implantation pain.” I learned however, that there is no consensus whether the phenomenon exists. I was so tempted to POAS yesterday but thankfully overcame my stupidity.

In my TWW surfing, I’ve discovered tons of blogs from women who are documenting their TTC. I never thought it would be so hard to conceive considering Brian and I weren’t even trying all that hard in January and did it.